All I See - Lydia

read the lyrics first...


You will never waste my time, no, no
You will never waste my time, 'cause...

Well, she locks all the doors and turns, says,
"We will always be safe here in this bed
All I see scares me, and no one waits forever."

So come closer, baby
I want to see what you're made of, see what you're made of
'Cause this isn't all we could be
You're not the same, and I'm, I'm not the same and...

No one could ever wait for you
And no one, yeah, no one could ever wait for you
I'll wait for you, love

But you are the never ending sleep
That I love to treat with this medicine
I get from my, my closer friend
But all I see...

So come closer, baby
I want to see what you're made of, see what you're made of
'Cause this isn't all we could be
You're not the same, and I'm, I'm not the same and...



now listen to it:


http://www.imeem.com/people/nqdE2hs/music/9uMXLDlc/lydia-all-i-see/

Take a Walk with Me...

Here are a few amateur photos I took while taking my best friend Gabey (my very cute white puppy dog) for a walk outside in Verrado. Now you can really feel like you are taking a walk with me!! Unfortunately, my camera decided to stop working halfway through, so we only get to go a little ways :) Anyways, I am no professional so no close studying of the pictures *wink wink*... Enjoy!





some pretty blossoms...









this is one of the ginormous houses down my street...



this is the lovely 'Founders Park' that is also just down the street. Gabe likes to run around on the grass :)



here we are looking back up my street from whence we came.









No, this is not my house...sadly, it is just around the block. But I absolutely love the posts on the front porch.






Thank you so much for walking with me!! I hope we can do it again sometime...

:)

Until then,
Jourdan

Tis the Season...for FAIRS!!

oh my gosh oh my gosh...it's official. My dad is taking me and my brothers to the Maricopa county fair in Phoenix!!! I am so excited. No, you don't understand - i probably love fairs more than any other corn dog lovin cowboy hat wearin hobo...you see, I kind of grew up on county fairs.

When I was all into horses and whatnot, I would go to the fair every year to show them off and get lots of pretty ribbons and fancy trophies to put on my wall. Even before I HAD horses I would go to the fair just to watch my friends compete. I would cheer them on, help them brush down their prize ponies, and get on and ride when the judges weren't looking ;) I tell ya, it was absolutely the best week of the year. Sometimes we would hop on one of those rusty trolleys and ride them into the real fairgrounds to see all the festivities..stand up comedians, hypnotists, and a bunch of little girls frolicking around in pink tutus showing their parents that they really did learn something in the local ballet studio (even if it is absolutely painful to watch).

I went to that SAME fair like four consecutive times and it never ever got old.

Oh and the rides!! Ohhh the rides...I love rollercoasters, ferris wheels, and bumper cars. It's just a recipe for success. I mean, you have tons of sugar, people to watch, things to buy, henna tattoo booths, the RODEO, elephant ears, and crazy flashing lights. What could be better??

Whenever I walk into the fairgrounds I get this warm fuzzy fun feeling. I don't know how else to describe it! It's like the adrenaline rush you get from dropping 80 feet on a rollercoaster - you can't stop smiling and you know your face looks hilarious so you hope and pray the person next to you doesn't glance your way :) I love that.

Well I'm off to the fair, I love you all and wish you could be here with me!! Blessings and love,

Jourdan

New Things Are Happening!!

Hey everybody who I know so faithfully read my blog! I have so many new and exciting things to tell you about.

One, i cut my bangs. They're really cute.

Two, I have a potential ballet teaching job opening up with the health club down the road. I am SO excited. They have been looking for a little kid ballet teacher for a long time and were thrilled to find out I was interested. I turned in my official application yesterday, so we'll see how it all turns out!!

Okay three, I just whitened my teeth because I ran out of my favorite toothpaste and I'm too cheap to go buy some more at CVS, therefore my teeth will probably hurt for the rest of the day. Dang.

Four, I have longboarded so much in the past week and a half that my left calf is officially larger than my right as a result of riding goofy; go figure.

Five, I haven't talked to my tri city peeps in a frickin long time since i've been here and i miss them terribly.

Six (wow, this is getting to be a long list), the tile guys have been wet saw-ing outside my front door for three days straight now and I'm starting to hear it in my sleep.

Seven, online classes suck.

Eight, I had a babysitting interview last night with some awesome people and I got to see a great dane for the first time which quite intimidated me. Seriously, it's head came up to my chin!!! Scary for a hundred pound little girl..

Nine, I got to go to Scottsdale for a shopping trip but didn't think about the fact that it was Easter Sunday and it was possible that all the stores would be closed. My bad. BUT I've never seen so many awesome cars and big a** mansions on hillsides in my life, so...cool trip.

That's all I have time for right now, I'm off to the DMV to wait in line for hours and hours to get a horrible picture taken of me and put on my new Arizona license :)

Ciao!

-Jourdan

What I've been doing lately...

Why hello all!

I have officially started blogging again, and let me tell you it has been so refreshing for me. I love being able to share my thoughts with the random blog world. So as you all know, I recently moved to Arizona and I am loving it so much! The house is pretty much in shambles with clutter and misplaced things all over its horizontal surfaces. So much "stuff" without a home. Hopefully this weekend will prove successful in getting it all cleaned up. My room is almost finished; my bed is all put together and my closet is full of all my clothes...yes, there were a TON to put away. You don't really realize how much junk you have until you move! Seriously, I threw away so much stuff from my room, I even gave away a bunch of my clothes to my little cousin Kaylee and still! I had a minimum of 7 boxes to unload into my little 12 by 12 bedroom. And that's nothing compared to how much has gone into this massive house. I'm guessing this place is probably about 1000 square feet bigger than our last place and it seems like there isn't enough space for all our stuff! I think it's just because there isn't a place for everything. It kind of looks like an old antique store in here with all the random furniture scattered around!

I do love this kitchen, though. We've made so many delicious meals in here already, it's gotten truly broken in! Momma made creme brule this afternoon and we are going to bring it to 'Grazie' tonight for Friday night dinner :) Okay, so Friday night dinner has become somewhat of a tradition around here. My parents happened to meet a few awesome people who love to drink wine at the authentic Italian restaurant here in Verrado, and what do you know...Friday night drinks at Grazie became quite popular! The last time us kids came to visit, we went to Grazie for the first time and loved it. Franco (the very Italian owner) came out and did the "Heyyy! Howa you doin??!" with the hand motions and everything. He makes special canoles for mom with no chocolate chips just for her :) We are already like family! So anyways, today is Friday and undeniably we will be having canoles at Pizzeria Grazie tonight. I can't wait!

I have gotten sunburned more times than I can remember already and we've only been here for a week! I think I have a perpetual collarbone burn goin' on. I have faithfully loved that lawn chair on the left of the lap pool and what has it given me in return? Nothing but pain. So there you go, I am not so lucky in love these days...I've gotten burned every time. I think I will trade in my pain for a few luxurious hours of sun beams on my face though. Lawn chair, you will not scare me away!

Pretty sure I love summer, but I will definitely miss the gorgeous winter days in Tri Cities. I love wearing sweaters and boots while walking with a good friend through the leaves or unsuccessfully throwing snowballs at someone three feet away. The big maple trees, the flowing river, the house with so many memories in it. Yes, these things I will miss but God has given me so many other things to be thankful for. I will always love what I had in Washington but I am SURE that He has greater things for me here.

Blessings to all you people I love so much,
XOXO
jourdan

A Funny Feeling

Today I am ambushed by a funny feeling...one that makes me wonder why I am here. What is the purpose of moving to a whole new state, a whole new life? How come I have to leave all of my friends and family for the uncertainties of Buckeye? Seriously? Why can't I just stay where I know everyone, every coffee shop, and how to work the microwave? I am seemingly confused right now about a lot of things but the biggest one that is on my mind is how to deal with these feelings.

I think I am probably the most laid back person on the planet. So how in the world (and when!) did I all of a sudden become all stressed out and feeling lost? I can't seem to put together all of the pieces floating around in my brain. At any given moment of any random day I am thinking about a million things and they are all fighting for my attention. They zoom around inside my head with no particular path to follow, like me. They sometimes bump into the other bajillion thoughts and apologize sincerely before zooming off to the next unknown destination. I honestly feel like one of those thoughts.

Yes, I am comparing myself to a figment of my imagination, literally, but it is the quickest way to describe the flurry of emotions rolling about in my overloaded brain.

I always loved the movie 'You've Got Mail'. It turns around the priorities of Kathleen Kelly and Joe Fox until all they can focus on is eachother. When her business is crashing down around her, she is able to seek solace with her internet soul mate Joe Fox. He gives her expert advice, because little did she know, he was in the book business himself...And he helps her through the hardest of times. I feel like I relate to these characters in more way than one!

"The Godfather is the I Ching. The Godfather is the sum of all wisdom. The Godfather is the answer to any question. What should I pack for my summer vacation? 'Leave the gun, take the cannoli.' What day of the week is it? 'Maunday, Tuesday, Thursday, Wednesday.' And the answer to your question is 'Go to the mattresses.' You're at war. 'It's not personal, it's business. It's not personal it's business.' Recite that to yourself every time you feel you're losing your nerve. I know you worry about being brave, this is your chance. Fight. Fight to the death." - Joe Fox

Fight! Fight to the death! Don't let the enemy know you're losing it...That makes sense, huh?

Here's another one:

"I met a man in an elevator today who knew exactly what he wanted. And I found myself wishing I were as lucky as he." - Joe Fox

And another:

"The whole purpose of places like Starbucks is for people with no decision-making ability whatsoever to make six decisions just to buy one cup of coffee. Short, tall, light, dark, caf, decaf, low-fat, non-fat, etc. So people who don't know what the hell they're doing or who on earth they are, can, for only $2.95, get not just a cup of coffee but an absolutely defining sense of self: Tall! Decaf! Cappuccino!" - Joe Fox

Actually, I just like that one :) Not really sure if it has any deep meaning...So I will leave you with this winner:

"Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life. Well, valuable, but small. And sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don’t really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So goodnight, dear void." - Kathleen Kelly

So with that, I send my questions out into the void of cyberspace. I don't seek answers from people or even the Godfather himself. I'm just getting them out of my head and onto some cyber-paper so they don't have to come out of my mouth. I find the same relief comes from writing a thought down as it does when you speak it. So instead of boring someone with my questions, I send them away for anyone to read and digest.

Goodnight dear void,
Jourdan Elisabeth